106 & Gospel

Ladies and Gentlemen, I have found my calling.

When I graduate from college in June, I want to be...I NEED TO BE...hired as a host for BET's 106 & Gospel.

That would be my dream finally, finally come true. I have always wanted to host a gospel entertainment show.

106 & Gospel already has fabulous hosts, but they won't want to be the hosts forever right? And someone has to replace one of them one day. It might as well be me.

Keep me in your prayers cause I'm chasing that dream! It seems far-fetched, but I really feel like God is going to open the door for me to walk through.

I can FEEL it!!!!

P.S. I haven't really told anyone face-to-face because I don't want anyone looking at me like I'm crazy, so if you mention this to me, I'll know you read my blog. Which is fine though!!!! I'm just saying :)

Not So Happy Endings

"Sometimes your heart takes you places that will never lead to a happy ending." - Anonymous


Have truer words been spoken outside of the Bible? The thing about life is just that you never know what a day may bring. You can be living your life one day thinking everything is a certain way then like a locomotive something hits you out of nowhere. All of the sudden, you don't know which way is up or down. Which was right or wrong. Which was true or a lie? Any of it? All of it?

I cared. I really did. More than I wanted to. More than I even knew I did. And for what? For nothing.

I think I heard someone say, "There are people who will hurt you and some of them will never be sorry." Not being sorry for hurting me is what kills me too. Did I mean nothing? How did I get so involved with someone who wasn't the least bit involved with me?

I learned though. Boy did I LEARN. I just wish I didn't have to learn. I wish that there was a happy ending. There isn't. There never was going to be. I just didn't know it until now. Darn it.

I am an Alpha Female

I am an Alpha Female
I am Type-A, intense, serious, in some people's estimations a slightly neurotic work-a-holic -- whatever you call it. I am trying to tone down the intensity for 2009, but honestly, I can only see it increasing when I graduate from college. I know how to chill and relax and have fun, but that time is not when I have an assignment due the next day and you want to argue with me on the phone all night about something silly. I have things to do. And I don't mind bringing my computer, sitting next to you on the couch and doing my work while you watch TV or do whatever you have to do. However, don't expect me to give you 100% attention when I am writing an article that is due in three hours. I told you that I had work to do and the fact that you decided to come over anyway doesn't change the fact that I have work to do. Honestly. {Writing this is reminding me why I am single, lol}.

I don't like Beta males either. I like nice, Alpha males. I like men who know what they want in life and will go after it. I like men who are confident and secure in themselves and I want a man I can rely on. Some women like Beta males, I have learned in 2008, that I am not one of those women.

Why is Rick Warren Praying at Obama's Inauguration Controversial?

Gay leaders are "furious" at President-elect Barack Obama.

Why?

Because Obama had the audacity to ask Rick Warren to deliver the invocation at his inauguration. Can you believe that? Can you believe that Obama had the nerve to ask an evangelical pastor to pray at his inauguration?

Warren, who gained worldwide notoriety for authoring the Purpose Driven Life series, is the pastor of Saddleback Church in California and hosted a popular televised forum for John McCain and Obama during the election.

Warren gained the ire of the "LGBT community" for supporting Proposition 8 -- the controversial bill recently passed banning same-sex marriage in California.

Therefore, this Christian pastor is unfit to pray for Obama.

I understand that because Warren lives in California, he had the opportunity to actually vote on the bill and not just rebuke or support it from another state. So, naturally, Obama could've chosen Joel Osteen or TD Jakes (both, by the way, oppose same-sex marriage) to deliver the invocation. I have a feeling that no matter which Christian pastor Obama would have chosen, the LGBT community would have been upset.

Newsflash: the majority of evangelicals don't support same-sex marriage. And it's not like Obama just chose a conservative judge. He chose a Christian pastor to deliver the prayer.

Why is this controversial?

This is one of the reasons why I find it hard not to be immensely annoyed by the "LGBT community" (not to be confused with people that I know who are gay or lesbian). Why do they feel like everything in life has to cater to them? Their outrage at the passage of Proposition 8 is justified. But the world is not going to be stopped and every supporter of Prop 8 ostracized because this small group of people are "outraged". It's ridiculous.

The LGBT community supported Barack Obama's presidency but so did a whole lot of people who don't support same-sex marriage. So, now what?

This one instance is just an illumination of a larger problem with Obama's candidacy and ultimately his presidency. Obama drew support from so many different types of people. Therefore, for the next four (or eight) years, these people are going to come calling for their issues to take precedence. He can't possibly please everyone.

Let's say for instance that Obama caves to the "LGBT outrage" and cancels Rick Warren (this is highly unlikely). The outrage will rise up on the other side. So, no matter what, Obama's decisions are always going to upset someone that supported him for president.

I just wish the "LGBT community" would save their outrage for things that matter -- and a Christian pastor who played a significant part in the presidential election praying at an inauguration is not one of those things.

Free Like You

I wish I could be free like you. I wish I could let it all out. I wish I was as strong as you. I wish I could let my feelings be known to anyone who will listen, to anyone who cares.

I have written about "him" -- filled up diaries, private blogs, written unsent letters, penned countless poems and songs. But these feelings are my secrets that I keep inside. What do I have to hide? What do I have to lose? Nothing? Everything?

In my incessant quest for perfection, something is so incontrollably imperfect. Something is lacking. There is a closed quality to my openness. I give so much, allegedly wear my heart on my sleeve, I am quick to tell you exactly what I think. Could someone with so many words coming out of her mouth, really be hiding this much in her heart?

I wish I could be free like you. I wish I had courage like you. I wish I didn't care. After all, what have I got to lose?

I care about "him" I really do. I could fill books with this saga and become a national best-seller, maybe even become rich off my poor heart.

I read what you so openly say and I hear my voice in your words -- things I would never let slip to the public. But I envy you. I envy your candidness. I envy your release. I envy your turmoil that, once expressed, brings peace.

But I am a coward. Held hostage by my own expectations. Maybe that's what is wrong and why I still hold on. I want to let go too.

I wish I could be free like you.

If You Want A Monarchy, Move to England

Caroline Kennedy for Senate?

Huh?

According to the New York Times, "Caroline Kennedy, the daughter of an American political dynasty, has decided to pursue the United States Senate seat being vacated by Senator Hillary Rodham Clinton of New York."

Again, Caroline Kennedy for Senate? On what merits?

Ohhhhh. She's JFK's daughter and Robert J. Kennedy's (who previously held the seat) niece. Therefore she is clearly the rightful heir of the seat.

Hold on, there is no such thing as "rightful heir" when it comes to politics in the United States of America. Excuse me while I check and make sure I'm in the right country.

I like what I know of Caroline Kennedy. Her support of Barack Obama helped immensely during the primary season. I also have the utmost respect for her family.

But, in an election year that taught young boys and girls that you can grow up to be whomever you want regardless of your last name, should the governor of New York then turn and appoint someone to a coveted seat solely because of her last name? I smell a hypocrite.

Just as I didn't think the fact that Hillary is a "Clinton" made her entitled to the presidency, I don't think the fact that Caroline is a "Kennedy" entitles her to the Senate seat.

I can't believe this is even an issue.

If you want a monarchy, move to England!

I do believe that a Democrat should keep the seat because the people of New York elected a Democrat (Hillary Clinton). I don't necessarily believe that the successor has to be a woman. There are plenty of women in the Senate anyway and I don't think Clinton was elected because she is a woman.

Some have said that Caroline should be appointed to keep the Kennedy legacy alive. That's one of the most ridiculous things I've heard all year. I understand that members of the Kennedy family were very important people, died brutal and/or unfortunate deaths and the country owes some of it's current success (in race relations and etc) to the family, but come on.

This is 2008. If Caroline Kennedy wants to run for Senate in a few years then sobeit. But she should absolutely not break ranks and be appointed.

The United States Senate doesn't need a princess -- they need a Senator.

Gov Blago

The political scandal of the year goes to....

Drumroll, please....

Rod Blagojevich, the governor of Illinois for trying to sell Obama's vacant Senate seat like Congress is a Lakers Game and Obama's seat is courtside.

He gets caught, arrested, bails himself out, then goes to work the next day (his birthday).

Seriously, what was this man thinking?

What is any politician who gets caught smack-dab in the middle of a scandal thinking?

I actually like political scandals because they're funny.

Not funny for the constituents who have corrupt people for representatives, but funny in a way.

I mean, you have got to be the most arrogant man in the world to think you were going to get away with something like that.

The media's coverage of it has been incessant (and quite entertaining on it's own) but when you're ready for a laugh, Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert hardly ever disappoint.

The Daily Show With Jon StewartM - Th 11p / 10c

Rod Blagojevich Is a Jagoff

Barack Obama Interview
John McCain Interview

Sarah Palin Video
Funny Election Video

The Colbert ReportMon - Thurs 11:30pm / 10:30c

Rod Blagojevich Is Arrested

Colbert at Christmas
Colbert Christmas DVD

Green Screen
Bill O'Reilly Interview