106 & Gospel

Ladies and Gentlemen, I have found my calling.

When I graduate from college in June, I want to be...I NEED TO BE...hired as a host for BET's 106 & Gospel.

That would be my dream finally, finally come true. I have always wanted to host a gospel entertainment show.

106 & Gospel already has fabulous hosts, but they won't want to be the hosts forever right? And someone has to replace one of them one day. It might as well be me.

Keep me in your prayers cause I'm chasing that dream! It seems far-fetched, but I really feel like God is going to open the door for me to walk through.

I can FEEL it!!!!

P.S. I haven't really told anyone face-to-face because I don't want anyone looking at me like I'm crazy, so if you mention this to me, I'll know you read my blog. Which is fine though!!!! I'm just saying :)

Not So Happy Endings

"Sometimes your heart takes you places that will never lead to a happy ending." - Anonymous


Have truer words been spoken outside of the Bible? The thing about life is just that you never know what a day may bring. You can be living your life one day thinking everything is a certain way then like a locomotive something hits you out of nowhere. All of the sudden, you don't know which way is up or down. Which was right or wrong. Which was true or a lie? Any of it? All of it?

I cared. I really did. More than I wanted to. More than I even knew I did. And for what? For nothing.

I think I heard someone say, "There are people who will hurt you and some of them will never be sorry." Not being sorry for hurting me is what kills me too. Did I mean nothing? How did I get so involved with someone who wasn't the least bit involved with me?

I learned though. Boy did I LEARN. I just wish I didn't have to learn. I wish that there was a happy ending. There isn't. There never was going to be. I just didn't know it until now. Darn it.